serial cheater

What's with guys and cheating? Is there a specific cheating code ingrained in their chromosome?

There are of course girls who cheat on their partners too. But you know how guys are.

Yesterday at work I was sent on a secret mission by a regular customer. He asked a favor from my superior actually, to send a gift to a girl half his age who works in a shop that is in the same row as ours. But since my superior must attend to the outlet, he sent me instead.
The same customer is already married, yet he spends time with his girlfriend every single day at our outlet. I overheard the girlfriend bragging to my superior saying her boyfriend doesn't fool around behind her back because she treats him well, not a half hour before the guy had the cheek to send me on the secret mission.

What does that make me - an accomplice? But I was just following my superior's order. I am hoping that I wouldn't go through that myself.

But who knows?

This is hush hush, but my superior told me he used to have a lot of girlfriends too. He said he's married too, at a very young age. He's even younger than me and he has a 3 year-old son. What's with guys? Really. Okay it is understandable for my superior's situation. He got married at a very young age. Still, it is his fault. He should have a good look around before making his purchase. Getting married when you were fresh out of school and haven't seen the world enough could be a great mistake one can make.

Guys, you should just grow up.

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accidents happen

I never thought accidents can be so wonderful. What happened the other day totally changed my perception.

True, the bar area is not very wide - it is just nice for I think maybe 4 person at one time, if everyone sticks to his or her own spot. Of course when it is busy on peak hours, when the customers are lining up it will be hard to have such comfort of moving freely without bumping into each other. Because usually there'll be more than 4 partners in the bar area when it's busy.

But the day it happened, there was not that many customers. Just a few of them and they have already gotten their orders..sitting down enjoying the food, beverages and friends' company.

Me on the other hand, had the chance to crash right into him or was it the other way round? I couldn't really remember. I just recalled the feel, and it was not like when you brushed someone aside softly. And it was not once, but thrice. Yes..three times. Was I lucky or what? Haha.

I haven't bumped into other guy partners like that, only him. It was like I have some kind of radar when others are in vicinity..but it's not the same with him.

a reason

I wrote about choosing between available options - it is really between keeping a job or chasing after better ones. The pay for the other jobs (which I don't know my chances of getting them) are higher than the one I'm holding on.

Which would you choose - a higher pay or some precious learning experience even though it'll take some time?

I went for the latter. It is confirmed today as I called to cancel my appointment with the interviewer for the possible job opportunity.

I'm sticking through thick and thin with this job that has my name on it. I fell in love with the organization when I heard what they did in the past and the way they run the company. And as my dad said to me - it's better for me to start from the bottom so I will know what my subordinates go through when I get the chance to be their superior.

The first night was horrible for me - too much work to be done at closing time and each task needs double the amount of my strength. But I still went to work a few hours after that, for the opening shift. With a little rest - I couldn't sleep much as my body was too tired.

That second day of work could be the reason I'm eager to stay for long - I met a colleague that seems to hold some interest in me. Nah, it's not the reason. I already made up my mind the first night of work. He's just another 'benefit'..haha.

He's a senior partner and came across as strict to me when he kept on testing my knowledge in making the mixture for the beverages. But I caught him stealing looks at me a few times when he thought I wasn't looking. And before my shift came to an end, he told me to do some cleaning. I was washing my hands, ready to go back when I heard another colleague mocking him for gazing at me intently.

Now the question is, would it be alright to have some sort of relationship with your colleagues? I used to refrain from having relationship with classmates for it could be kind of restraining - I want to be free and be myself in class, not having to keep my actions in check.

which is it?

The manager at the place I'll be working at asked a question that I think is significant to me now. He asked if I can multitask - I answered "Yeah, I can."

Does doing some Math calculations and listening to music at the same time can be considered as multitasking? What about clipping my toenails and watching the telly? Or what about grabbing a 'maybe' top from a discount bin and my eyes are aggressively trying to spot another cute top?

Haha..I know. I'm hopeless.

Just look at this baby blog of mine. Nooooo..I didn't leave you. I just had some busy moments, and I might have been paying a little bit extra attention to your sister, my first blog. Okay..okay, all my attention.

I already rested long enough at home and so I felt I really need to get a job. I started to send out applications through emails and it was fruitless. Only one replied at first, and I went for an interview. But they didn't contact me after that. Then I went to a jobfair. Also none replied. Or, so I thought. Actually someone called me but the guy was kind of not a professional. He didn't want to tell me what position is available, that he's calling me for. And he kind of creeps me out. So I didn't go.

Then I put in more effort and went to some F&B outlets to try my luck. At last I'm accepted as a worker, starting from below as the position I was aiming for isn't available at the moment.

Next thing I know the 'creepy' guy called me again and told me to attend another interview. I managed to coax him into telling me about the position. The money seems to be pretty good, considering my lesser expectation and the fact that the high living cost in that area made me turn my back to it. But it was not my forte. Yes, S&M is not for me.I had to turn his offer down. Sad, but that is what I have to do.

Another call for an interview is still bugging me. It was for a better post at another company. But I'm not positive that I will get it. And it's scheduled for after I already starts working. This one is hard. I love the environment of the place where I'm already accepted. The other place is too laid back and I feel it clashes with me being impatient. But if I work there, I could get promoted to a higher rank faster.

Oh, could is such a mean word. I could also get something precious where I'm already accepted. Decisions, decisions.

would you?

I would remember every single detail of my man's life, it's like I absorb everything and keep them safely inside my mind. What he likes, what he listens to, whatever that is going on in his life..

It's a simple thing, just listen to your partner and learn to save the details that can be used forever, right? I think it is only natural for me to want to know that beloved person. If possible I'd like to trace his footsteps - every single one of it, every minute of the day. But then I'd seem like a crazy person if I do that..haha.

But guys don't always remember things..could that mean they love us women any less?

How would guys feel if we ask them the same question about themselves over and over again - when they already told us before? Would they feel like how women would feel?

Consider this..

Girl: Where should we go for our vacation next year, honey?

Guy: Let's rent a lodge, there's this place I happen to come across before when I was with the guys and the view is amazing. You'd like it there. Besides, you know I don't like those crowded beaches.

A couple of weeks later,

Girl: Honey, let's go to the beach. My friends want us to join them.

Guy: Baby, I don't like going to the beach.

Another couple of weeks after that,

Girl: I'm taking you somewhere special for your birthday, honey.

Guy: This road's heading to the beach, baby.

Girl: Yeah, that's the special place I mentioned. I already arranged something for us there.

Guy: I don't like to go to the beach, baby.

How would the guy feel then? Would he feel as sad as a girl if the situation's reversed?

different

I have been watching many dramas and movies, and would usually warm up to the protagonist without much difficulties. It is easy - he's cute, lovable, often a tall guy, and also he seems to know how to steal our heart right from the second we take a look at him.

Then, a thought struck me last night while I was watching a drama with a lot of other nice guys besides the 'hero'. What if The One would have the characteristics of the other guys and not the main guy we set our eyes upon?

The guy could be a person who's unable to express himself, keeping his emotions bottled up inside and make us clueless of what he's actually feeling.
Or the guy could be having a lot of flings and may seem like a jerk, when he doesn't even know why he does that - and could stop right when he found someone meant to be with him.
Or the guy could be pining away for this one girl he sets his eyes on a long time ago, yet the girl didn't give him a chance and when he lets go of that feeling..he found a girl who would devote herself to him.

Take the first guy above, if he's unable to express himself and he seems to be taking all the love we give him without giving much back..would you be understanding and keep on loving him? Or would you change him to be the way you want?

brave girl

I was at a loss for words when I first read about Giuliana having breast cancer. She found out about it while trying to get pregnant through IVF.

Giuliana and Bill are my idols. They are super busy with work scattered everywhere and yet, they still have time for their family. I hope that someday in the future, I will have a great husband like Bill and that I can be energetic like Giuliana who handles everything in her life so well.

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I have a lot of dreams which includes building a happy family of my own and at the same time build a successful, thriving empire. At times I question myself..can I do this? How would I manage the time and pay attention to everything? There would be a lot of stressful times - I know I'm thinking too much, when none of it has even started for me.

G, I know you can fight this battle with Bill, your family and us fans supporting you. You are such a brave girl for coming forward telling the world that you have cancer. You're thinking for others even during this difficult time, you are such a sweetheart. We know you can win this. I wish for you to have a complete recovery in no time and for the cancer to go away.

Much love from me.

making it work

I just finished reading The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks, which could be a bit late or not.

I know the movie had been out a long time ago. But I just prefer to read books more than the movies (when they're made into movies). I could picture what they wear and what they do in each paragraph - all in my mind. That's a whole lot more fun than having your expectations crushed when you watch the movie and it doesn't deliver.

The book is really good. I could now see why my two brothers are really into Sparks' books.

I feel that having a relationship when it feels it's not going to work as a waste. And Sparks wrote about that.

I mean, if the relationship can't survive the long term, why on earth would it be worth my time and energy for the short term? ― Nicholas Sparks, The Last Song

We might as well be looking for that Mr. and Mrs. Right, and not spend time being 'together' temporarily.  Could we even call it a relationship? We will be thinking, 'oh, I'm going back home after this summer ends and this guy won't even remember me.' 'This girl's cool, but I can't picture myself being with her for long.'

But then there are also temporary flings that grow and put their roots deep in our hearts. I mean can we really tell if the feelings are going to stay? Or if the feelings are mutual? How can we know? Is it as easy as in the books - I felt the connection from the first time we set our eyes upon each other; I felt the urge to get to know the guy/girl; or we fought every time we met but I have these heavy feelings in my heart for her/him??

How to tell?

marry you

Wedding is such a joyous occasion - the little details, the dress, the white lace, the flowers, the bridesmaids, the best man, the friends, the aisle, the vow, the celebration. All in all it is filled with merry-making and laughter.

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But planning and preparing for a wedding could probably have brought on endless headaches and squabbles which could make or break the relationship. One wants simple little do with family and close friends only, the other wants a sumptuous occasion filled with everything from white lilies to white swans by the lakeside.
How do you compromise? The list would probably goes on and on with no sign of the end. Just look at Kim K's fairytale wedding. You'll get the picture alright.

What seemed to start as a union of love between two people could end up with them questioning the very union itself. "Can I live with this guy who doesn't seem to understand that I need this particular shade of green ribbon to go with the chairs?" "Who is this Bridezilla? Is she really the sweet and funny girl I proposed to, a couple of months back?"

We could end up separating like Emma and her fiancé in the film Bridewars (2009).

Little did we know that the wedding is like a window, that can show us just how the marriage will turn out in the future.

We could see the real person our partner is. We can get an insight of how our married life would be with our partner. But, would you be brave to call it quits the moment you see those tell-tale characters, or would you just go on with the wedding and hope to God your partner will become someone you hoped for?

Just remind me to have deep, imperative talks with my future husband before we say 'I do' and figure which direction we are going - and if it's really working out for us.

I want

If it's up to me, the guy who wants to be part of my life would have a long list to fulfill and that list is bottom-less.

• He would have to be someone sensitive, enough to be able to assess my feelings right at the moment. I mean it will be perfect if he can know just what to do especially when I'm not in the mood. Or just slip out of my sight quietly when I'm mad at him. Haha. 

• I need someone that is a manly man - one who can do any job under the sun. Plumber, checked. Masseur, checked. Gardener, checked. Too much 'Desperate Housewives' i guess. 

• He shouldn't be someone born with money, so that we won't have a complicated relationship. You know how money can interfere in any way. But he could be someone that will take measures to show appreciation to me once in a while with gifts - it's better tenfold if he works and save his pay just to surprise me with something. Sweet.

• Someone who understands that I'm not a person who can describe how much I love him, especially when the feeling has taken over me. I need you to understand how my heart works.

• He shouldn't mention any past relationship more than three times. It irritates me, no matter if he wants to say I'm better than those girls or if I should do something they did for him. I can only stand so much. It hurts to know I'm one of many, more so when you keep repeating it in my face. And for the girl you never got hold of, and still lamenting over her - put her out of your mind and stop mentioning her name, period. 

• He must be able to know when he needs to make the decisions, and when he can be sweet and ask me to make the decisions. 

That's long enough for now, I'll be sure to add more plus points I want in my man from time to time.
Keep my heart safe.

inspired

I'm starting my new blog by typing these words and gulping deep breaths to keep my heart from jumping out from my chest.

Hi there readers :)

I'm turning 25 in a matter of days, which is of course nothing big compared to those of you who've gained a lot during the years you've lived on this earth. I'm always open to ideas, suggestions and comments from you because I want to learn from everyone.

This is not my first, but since I need some anonymity before I can really open up and 'talk' - this blog is here for your eyes.

Love makes the world go round, or does it?